The Importance of the Parish/School Relationship

 

Last Friday I celebrated the opening School Masses for Fr. Michael Goetz CSS in Mississauga.  The chaplaincy leader, Mr. Ray Frendo invited me to come out to the school at the beginning of the summer this year.  The first things I was impressed with was all the students from the school walking across the street to Cristo Rei Church where both Masses were celebrated; a powerful sign of the important relationship between the parish and school community.

This was an especially joyful experience for me, as I was able to reflect on the very appropriate readings of the day (especially the Gospel… “pray to the Lord of the harvest…”) but also to connect this not only in a reflective way but personal and concrete way to the lives of the students of that school.  Fr. Michael Goetz is the alma mater of a couple of our seminarians, Shawn D’Souza and Sean Jacob.

Shawn D’Souza is on his Pastoral Year at St. Edward the Confessor in North York and is doing well there.  He is in a very important year of his formation where he will spend the year working in a parish, mentored by his pastor, Fr. Pat O’Dea (a former Vocation Director) and “learning the ropes”.  This is so important a year, that seminarians often determine whether they will continue or not on this internship year with Lord.  I know I did.

Shawn is a fine young man who has many gifts and talents and whom I had the pleasure to get to know well when he worked for me as my Seminarian Assistant in the Office of Vocations a few summers ago.  He worked very hard that summer to help shape our new Vocations Office and develop so many things within.  He is a joyful young man, very social, very engaging and down-to-earth; these gifts and talents are what he now puts to good use with the people at St. Edward’s.

Sean Jacob is in the Propaedeutic Year of his seminary formation; a year dedicated to prayer, spiritual life development, reflection and understanding of our Catholic Christian faith in a deeper way.  I shared with the students a few of my own thoughts as well as to speak about Sean.  He is younger than Shawn D’Souza so some of the older students remember him still.  He was also an altar server and known to some of the students who also serve Holy Mass at Cristo Rei (where Sean’s family also attend).  To know Sean is also to know a very joyful, engaging and lively young man.  I first knew Sean when we hired him as a Totus Tuus missionary a few years ago.  His summer of evangelizing helped him to begin (or continue really) to discern what the Lord might be calling to: he entered seminary to discern whether that might be the priesthood.

I humbly admitted to students that Sean has taught me a lot about what young people are “into” these days which helps keep me in the know and this is something that should be important to priests as we preach and hope to evangelize the culture.  It’s an important thing that we try to understand the culture we live in, and I really appreciate that many of our seminarians, especially both these young men who have helped me in this way.

So as not to put any pressure on them (every seminarian should have the freedom and peace of mind to know that) good discernment doesn’t mean ordination…it means leaving seminary as a priest, or knowing you’re not called to be one.  It was great to be with a school and parish community that is seeing a number of young people, men and women discerning the Lord’s calling for them in their lives.  When I tweeted out my presence at the school, I also came to discover several former Totus Tuus missionaries had attended Fr. Michael Goetz.  One is teaching at the school, one is part of the amazing Re:Generation team in the archdiocese; even Mr. Frendo himself is in formation and a year away from ordination to the Permanent Diaconate.

I share my experience of an awesome morning at Fr. Michael GoetzCSS/Cristo Rei because I think’s it’s vitally important for all people to know that our Catholic Schools are important and there are many vocations in these places.  As a priest who works with so many other people to continue building and re-building a culture of vocations within the Archdiocese of Toronto; I recognize how important it is for us all to support these schools.

We Needn’t Bother Asking God to “Go Away”: He Never Gives Up on Us

“Depart from me, Lord for I am a sinful man”.  When St. Peter experiences the Presence of God through Jesus Christ on the Lake of Gennesaret, when he truly encounters the Lord, he has a humbling moment of unworthiness, a moment when faced with what little or weak faith he has had, realizes he shamefully isn’t ready to encounter the Redeemer.  While today’s Gospel is yet another true to life love story of a loving Lord who has mercy and redeems it is also a point for many of us to deeply ponder in our hearts and in our own lives.  This hope-filled confession is what endeared St. Peter to me as a 31 year-old convert and gave me cause to ask him to be my patron saint.  I have grown to love St. Peter more and more as I reflect upon his life, relationship with Jesus and how he aspired for holiness despite his own weaknesses.  As I journey with men discerning priesthood, I know what he could offer would benefit many, maybe even most of the young men discerning.

Unworthiness is often one of the first stumbling blocks and barriers to good vocational discernment.  We often begin to contemplate and consider God calling us to a religious vocation and then run away from the calling because of a sense of our unworthiness.  In a sense we are and always will be unworthy; we simply need to get over it.  In another sense, is it really our place to determine our worthiness if the Lord is calling us, especially given today’s Gospel among other signs?

What did Jesus do when Peter asked Him to leave him be?  He called him more deeply into the mission!  Perhaps he could have consoled him or said “there, there…” or honoured his request, but he did nothing of the sort and instead he gave him a sense of what his meaning in life would be and the purpose of that life.  Peter was called to be holy; to strive for holiness which would mean that he would need to take on the mission of Christ.  It would soon be revealed that he would in fact lead that mission.  Jesus did not leave him in any way, rather drew closer to him.

He does the same for us, and this is a fact that cannot and should not escape us.  Often it does.  Sometimes it is a low sense of self-esteem or self-worth; a lacking we might have to see ourselves the way God sees us.  This happens through a lifetime of others breaking us down.  Sometimes it’s through or by our own sense of sinfulness.  We struggle with some sin or the same sins over and over again, and become disheartened; we give up (or want to).  In all cases, when good vocational discernment ends, or a faith journey ends because of any of these things: it is a sad day indeed!

Be filled with hope; with the virtue of hope!  St. Peter (who wasn’t quite a saint yet when this account took place) continued to grow in holiness, faith and love day by day.  He worked hard to fulfill the mission.  He confessed so often that nearly every account in the Gospels is something of a confession – but one thing he did not do (and neither should we) is give up.  Let’s use St. Peter as our model today and every day.  May we never give up, knowing that the God of love will NEVER give up on us either.

Life is About Being with God as well as Doing for Him

Jesus Tempted

Life has a natural ebb and flow to it, we soon come to discover.  Just as we cycle through the seasons, so too do we cycle through the seasons of our own lives. Most of us (myself included) in a spirit of trying to be in control of things in our lives don’t “go with the flow”.  We seek to orchestrate things the way we want them to go and find a lack of peace at times; then we need to reassess how we live our lives.  Life takes on a greater peace and calmness when we realize that despite having our ups and downs, trials and tribulations, busy times and calm times – we must do what we can and then trust and entrust the rest to the Lord our God.

In today’s Gospel; we hear another account of Jesus healing; this time it’s Peter’s mother-in-law from what ails her.  Jesus is constantly healing, we hear it accounted again and again.  He is constantly and tirelessly (it seems) extending the love, mercy and compassion of God to everyone He meets.  The Son of God invites everyone He heals to a deeper and more commitment life with God but then we hear in today’s Gospel as we hear again and again He withdraws to a “lonely place”.

I feel a sense of conviction, but also happily a deeper sense of calling when I reflect on the healing miracles of Christ.  Jesus is always generous in His Ministry, which I remind myself is supposed to be the ministry I share in, in whatever way I am called to.  But He retreats: He withdraws to a quiet, lonely, “away” place, a place of solitude; essentially a place to pray and to be in uninterrupted communion with the Father.  Jesus models the ebb and flow of the Christian life, not simply in what He does but also in His disposition, His disposition of prayer.  I feel a sense of conviction because I value myself by what I am doing and I have since my teenage years.

I had a part-time job when I was 14, working in landscaping, then at a gas station, then many other jobs, some more interesting than others but I have for more than thirty years of my life put a lot of personal worth and value on how hard I work.  This is a quality that I have been praised by many people for and even as a Catholic priest, I take great satisfaction on working hard and a hard day’s work.  I find myself convicted, because I easily let go of my own prayerful nourishing at the first opportunity to do some more work.  I generally fulfil my priestly obligations and do pray because I have wrapped my head around “the work” of praying as a priest.  Thanks be to God, by His Word He convicts me to withdraw and be with Him.  My priesthood is better for it.  My life is much better for my own communion and conversation with the God who loves me.

It’s not one or the other.  It’s always both, in the ebb and flow of life.  We all must acknowledge that.  The Lord values both, we must too.  In my own life I have, for many years found great value in a strong work ethic.  That is the person I came to be.  Now as a Christian man and a Catholic priest, I acknowledge the Lord is calling me to see His value in being close to Him; to fostering now and always a strong prayer ethic.  The foundation for this helped me see clearly that the Lord was calling me to the priesthood.  Seminary formation helped remind me of this, but old habits die hard.  If my story resonates with you: let’s both be reminded and reflect on today’s Gospel as a deeper calling to both generosity in our Discipleship and generosity in prayer.  Let us pray for that for one other today and every day.

A Few Thought from a Reluctant Blogger

Every now and again I hear from people that they get something from my blog reflections, which is nice to hear – and praise the Lord for that!   My own introduction to the “blogosphere” and my trying my hand at blogging came from my days as Associate Pastor at St. Patrick’s in Markham and an alternative to emailing my homilies when requested by people.  Our Youth Ministry Coordinator introduced me to this form of communication and social media.  It is still somewhat uncomfortable for me to fully engage this work because I feel like it borders on self-promotion for me.  That is not a judgement on others because from the odd Christian blog I’ve read, it occurs to me the need for some great writers to share their reflections in faith for us.  I don’t consider myself among that league of Christians writers, maybe because I’ve never been much of a writer at all.  The only reason I have anything to post is because in the interest of the people I preach to, I need to have a text with me, otherwise my homilies would be very long!

I have continued the blogging into the Office of Vocations, because wise people have continued to encourage me to do this and I figured that I could tie this into my ministry somehow.  My ministry is evolving, and I find myself less often in parishes preaching as I once was.  Relational ministry is the essence of a Vocation Director’s work and I find with more discernment groups and more people to meet; there are less weekends free for parish preaching (as much as I love it).  Without as many new homilies, I find myself blogging less and less.

Recently I’ve asked members of the Vocations Team to create more and write more, and so I too need to “put my money where my mouth is”, so to speak.  Now that I have shared my thoughts today on blogging, I offer you a very short reflection, based on one of my other social media tools which I use more often (because it’s a little easier), my Twitter account, my daily “tweet”.  My Twitter handle is @FatherLemieux.  I also use @vocationsTO, which is our Office of Vocations handle: but it’s a shared account so I use it less frequently and it is less personal than mine.  Anyway my tweet today was this: “Jesus gives us HIS authority over unclean spirits (evil) doing the work of making the world a GOOD place, one action at a time”.

My friends, I truly believe this.  Of course, as a Catholic priest I would never deny the presence of true evil and demonic possession, but these cases are rare.  The Gospel isn’t going to speak to each of our hearts if we consider something that most of us will never directly encounter in our lives: evil in this form.  But there are unclean spirits all around us, evil happening in the world, the community and the places each of us live.  I’m not talking about bad things happening to good people, because that is not evil in the sense of what we’re talking about here.  God’s children doing bad things to each other.  And it doesn’t have to be all that dramatic either. The most insidious of things happen when we are indifferent and complacent in helping others.

But what we are given God’s power and authority to do (each one of us) is to do good and to change the world, one good act at a time.  Friends, as we contemplate today’s Gospel, let us give this some thought.  If any one of us can say we’ve done everything we possibly can – praise God for the good we’ve brought to the world.  If we can do more good and be less complacent or indifferent, then welcome to my club (because I know there’s more I can be doing too) and let’s take the power and authority that comes with being Christian and make this world a better place…one action at a time!

From the Vineyard: The Joy of the Gospel

A couple of days ago, I had the great pleasure to break bread with my Vocation Director whom the Lord used to help me follow Him.  He was an instrumental part of God’s plan in my life; in my own vocation story.  He picked up the phone and called me when he arrived to the Office of Vocations, when I had put discernment of the priesthood on the back-burner and helped me to see past my own limited way of thinking when I was ready to pack it all in (as I struggled with philosophy in the early years).

We have remained friends, and so it’s good to get together as brother priests, with someone who knows me as well as a Vocation Director gets to know men he works with, and now as Vocation Directors sharing ideas.

It was his joy that was an important witness for me in the early days of discernment. Even though I didn’t grow up with any thoughts one way or another about the priesthood; I tended to worry about my own suitability as a man to give my life to something I could sense was as important and noble as the priesthood.  Fr. Liborio was a very real guy, and he shared with myself and many of the men discerning at the time some of his own challenges and struggles – but nothing came in the way of his articulated and evident joy.  I often reflect back now on what I was experiencing as I discerned, and while the evident joy in the men who set examples for me might not have been as profound a reason then, I believe that it truly what compelled me to follow Jesus and give my life to the Church as a priest.  Little by little we are presented with the challenges that a religious vocation has (and there are challenges of course, as there are in every life).  We face our own fears and insecurities and hopefully with good spiritual direction we see past our own noses.  But a man living a good and healthy life, a self-giving life, a life filled with the giving and receiving love-life a priest does in a chaste and celibate but no less intimate way – this is the key to what will beget more priestly vocations.  I am certain more religious vocations in general.

My visit with him the other day was another joyful encounter.  As I have succeeded him as Director of Vocations, and he is once again in parish ministry; it was great to hear of an ever-deepening joy that he experiences as a pastor shepherding (and loving) his people.  It enriches my own ministry to hear the joys of his.  Our conversation helped me to appreciate my present role and ministry all the more, but to also be reminded of the joys of parish ministry too.

Joyful witnesses all around us; as Christians this is what will attract others to want to be Christian.  Living for God and for things greater than ourselves; living lives that are free from many worries, anxieties, fears but in a way that we have to seek to understand rather than merely see in obvious ways: these free us also to live joyful lives…or they should.  When we accept our own shortcomings, weaknesses, sins as opportunities to encounter and grow with the Lord as absolutely and unconditionally loved people; when we accept every good thing about ourselves as gifts given by God and to be shared with others…when we make the grace-filled decision to share our lives generously with others – we will look at many things, and hopefully and eventually everything with the lens of Christian joy.  This is the Joy of the Gospel.  This is the joy which Pope Francis and so many others have encouraged us to seek, to pray for, to never give up on aspiring to in our lives.

Friends, this joy will lead us all to grow today and every day as Christians and if we are open to it; this will lead us to our particular and unique Christian vocation.  My Vocation Director and others helped me find mine.  Who is or will be helping you?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

From the Vineyard: A Few Thoughts

I have entered my fourth year “In the Vineyard” so-to-speak; in a dedicated way as Director of Vocations.  A priest should always find himself in the vineyard in every way, encouraging and supporting men and women to dedicated service in the Church of Christ.  Today, I want to begin to offer a few thoughts (for those few who might find themselves reading my blog musings) on this blessed ministry which I am grateful that I have been called to by the Lord.

These really have been four amazing years.  As a relatively “new” priest (I celebrated my fifth anniversary of ordination in May), I have been blessed to spend 1 1/2 years in a beautiful and vibrant community and then reassigned to the Office of Vocations for the Archdiocese of Toronto in January 2014.  I have worked with many who have heard the Lord’s call and find myself collaborating with many to find new and better ways to help those who are open to discerning find their way too.  One of the most helpful directives I received from Cardinal Collins upon my appointment as Director was his desire that I always put “people before programs” which I have tried my best to honour.  The investment of time offered for anyone discerning is well worth it!

The Church is blessed with many very fine people discerning.  There are many very solid, loving, faith-filled men and women discerning religious vocations amid the challenges that we face as a Church and as Christians in the world today.  There are many devout Disciples of Christ who are willing and ready to make sacrifices for a life that is filled with meaning and purpose, such as they are hopeful to find when they contact my office or speak to their priest or minister who will then speak to me. The challenge I find the vocations team faces in the Archdiocese of Toronto is finding the right place for all people to find their way to dedicated service as priests; religious sisters and brothers in the Church.

Every Vocation Director has his priorities, and these are mine.  I share them, because these are what I see as the most important things we do as Christians to discern ourselves but help others discern too and from these will flow the next few reflections I will share here with you:

  1. Personal Accompaniment: It really is not the Christian way for us to “go it alone” in our vocational discernment.  Although silence in prayer often is the place where the Lord speaks to us most clearly and profoundly, a vocation to priesthood or religious life is one which requires direction and companionship. This is the primary work and ministry for a Vocation Director and it certainly comprises most of my own dedicated time.
  2. Development of our Catholic Culture:  Even as dedicated Catholic people, we do not live in a culture that often welcomes, embraces or supports religious vocations.  It’s not that we are hostile to these kinds of dedicated lives, but we tend not to understand them.  We need to “get the word out” and we need to help everyone, not just those discerning to see the relevance of religious vocations today and help one another to a greater understanding of what a religious vocation is and why they are essential for us all.
  3. Development of our Culture of Prayer: Even as dedicated Catholic people, we sometimes have a superficial understanding of prayer and why it’s important. As I’ve said before, prayer is not to change the mind of God, especially praying for vocations.  Prayer often is most important because it helps to change the social conscience and awareness among ourselves of what’s important to us.  In families for example, when we pray for an increase in vocations to all vocations, children are more apt to speak with parents and family members about religious vocations, and if families consider these kinds of vocations just as important as the vocation of holy, healthy marriages; these kinds of thoughts and considerations become the part of a young person’s formation in life and may lead to considering religious life.
  4. Leading by Example.  As I present myself before the Lord, I am altogether very aware of my own weaknesses and sins, my shortcomings and challenges in life that make me less than everything I would wish to be.  I am grateful for my gifts but well aware of my many faults.  However, the greatest asset I have as a Vocation Director is my own sense of joy in the priesthood.  I try to share this with the men discerning and the seminarians with whom I mainly work.  I also try my best to point out the other priests and religious who share and radiate this quality of joy.  It’s the most attractive thing.  Joyful witnesses beget more joyful witnesses of the Gospel.  Negativity, melancholy and pessimism in priesthood and religious life don’t attract others to a commitment to live for a life that doesn’t seem appealing.

I hope you will enjoy the reflections I offer you here in these next days and I hope that my Blog Reflections continue to offer some food for thought.  May God bless you!

 

Wisdom Frees Us from Worrying About Worldly Concerns

Our Gospel today reminds us that we are not called to be oblivious or naive about what is going on in the world around us; in fact, we are called to be wise to worldly things but free from the worry about them.  Easier said than done.  As I get older, I am finding that there really is less and less reason to worry.  My worry doesn’t change the outcome of much of anything – it just consumes me.  I’ve also considered myself experienced in the world which can and has led me to be paranoid about things; again a form of worry that often times is not even rational.

Jesus is being realistic in today’s Gospel.  He tells us to beware of our fellow men, because they will be the ones who mistreat us, denegrate us, perform injustices against us, hurt us, betray us and often time in the name of Christ or because we are Christians.  We are a target, but so was our Lord Himself.  We need to “wise” to this – we are easy targets because we aren’t called to retaliate and because we are living counter culturally.  Jesus is being realistic, but He isn’t telling us to bury our head in the sand or to succumb to the temptation to be like everybody else.  We are called simply to continue to think of others always first and think of ourselves last.

This is the essence of a religious vocation.  It’s the essence of every vocation and I can see it in the married vocation too, but this is the kind of quality men and women called to serve God and His Church are called to perfect in our way of life.  We are going to be targets at times, mistreated and all these things which can be daunting when we consider this way of life.  But we are never closer to our Lord than when we share in His Life.  We share in His Life when we take on His Mission and His Sacrifice.

Let us consider today how we approach suffering and sacrifice; do we embrace it and let go of the worry?  Find the peace within?  Let us allow ourselves to be wise in knowing what the world might have in store for us as Christians both good and bad, and let us respond without worry today and every day.

Facing the Reality of the Cross As a Follower of Christ

This reflection is based upon my Homily offered on the CTV Sunday Mass on Sunday July 2, 2017 (13th Sunday in Ordinary Time & Matthew 10:37-42)

In today’s Gospel we hear the Words of Jesus: “whoever does not take up his cross and follow after me is not worthy of me”.  These are powerful words and words it might be helpful for us to take a few moments to stop and reflect upon.  Do we live these words through and to the end, or do we live them to a point?  Are we willing to pick up our cross but then put it down again when the price seems too much or too high?  Do we follow Jesus up to a point… following Him to the Cross but not up on the Cross? Do we say, if even subconsciously “I will carry a cross but I won’t be crucified upon it?”  My friends, if we ask ourselves these questions and fall short – as if you’re anything like me you might do…

We can almost say that we are not truly followers of Christ, just “mere admirers”.    Our Gospel today calls all of us to not only reflect upon this but also to go deeper if we can.  I would think that many of us can relate to being “just an admirer” at times in our lives – when our commitment to Jesus is tested to the breaking point.  There are times in our lives when the full impact of Jesus’ words hit home for us though, with frightening force.

When hardship or tragedy strikes us in our lives; we are tempted to not want that cross, to not want to pick it up and follow Jesus as He asks us to; tempted to turn away from Jesus and no longer follow in His footsteps as we’re called to.  It’s hard for those of us who have loved someone to pick up our cross and follow Jesus when we have been rejected… cast aside… betrayed by someone we love deeply.  It’s hard for those of us who are elderly to pick up our cross and follow Jesus when we have been forcefully put into a senior’s home or nursing home.  It’s hard for spouses to pick up their cross and follow Jesus when the other spouse travels a lot for work and they are left lonely… isolated and taking care of the children.  It’s hard for us to follow Jesus when we have been diagnosed with cancer or some other life-altering disease and find our lives dramatically changed forever.

What do those among us who suffer greatly do when the cross has been thrust upon them; and especially when that cross seems to exceed our ability to carry it?  When we find ourselves with such a cross, these are the times we especially need to remind ourselves that there were moments in the Life of Jesus Himself, when His Cross exceeded His strength to carry it and when that time came; He had to accept the help of a stranger; Simon of Cyrene.  The Son of God, the Savior of the World had to admit Himself weak and lacking in the strength to carry His cross on His own.

Whom do we reach out to, when our burdens seem too great?  Are we humble enough to admit we need help and ask for it?  We reach out to Jesus first.  He knows and can identify with what we’re going through better than anyone can.

We can count on His strength.

We also need to reach out to others in our lives as well; those who are vulnerable like us, professionals, friends and family.  Our Gospel today is an invitation for each of us to stop and ponder; to ask ourselves the humbling questions: are there times in my life when it impossible for me to pick up my cross and follow Jesus?  If our answer is in any way ‘yes’ – then we are given another challenge today.  We are challenged to do what Jesus did when His Cross became too heavy to bear and be humble enough to admit it; reaching out to those who want to help us, but it also challenges us to see things through the eyes of Simon of Cyrene too for others.  To be there and be alert for the time when someone else needs our help in carrying their cross.

We all pay it forward.

We all must help one another so that others are there to help us in our own time of trial too.  May God bless you.

Recognizing Jesus in the Breaking of the Bread

One of my favourite personal stories to share with confirmation students is my own recognition of Jesus in the Breaking of the Bread.  When I was a catechumen (preparing to become Catholic and in RCIA), I had a meeting with the preparation team.  I was very conscientious and a diligent student.  I was on fire in my quest to be a Disciple of Jesus and to learn everything there was to learn about Him.  We had been taught about the Eucharist and it was told to us that Catholics believe at Mass the bread and wine truly become the Body and Blood of Jesus.  I did not believe it, and I told the teachers I could accept it as a symbol but “c’mon let’s not go too far!”  It was at this point and with a discussion that my catechists told me that if I could not accept this, then I could not become a Catholic.  I was very angry about this because I had been doing my best and my first reaction was to blame the catechists for not having taught me properly.  I was not someone who was going to ‘buy in’ and you had to be reasonable.  I was prepared to walk away believing that Jesus didn’t want me to be brainwashed into believing something about Him that wasn’t true.

My sponsor encouraged me to meet with our Associate Pastor, a very intellectually gifted man (a friend and now a seminary professor) and he could probably help me with this.  He and I spoke for almost two hours on this and he offered me as much as he could.  He couldn’t convince me, but what he told me as we were wrapping it up was so profound and is the essence of the story I am telling here today.  He told me that to believe in Christ is a gift of faith, and it’s an actual gift.  Believing in the Eucharist as a Catholic is also a gift and we need to ask God for gifts of faith.  He told me the greatest theologians and teachers of the Church could share everything they had and not convince me of something that is a Mystery of Faith.  He told me that I needed to ask God for it in prayer, which is what I did.  I don’t remember the moment when I came to believe, but something happened within the next few weeks that allowed me to continue (because I was obstinately prepared to quit).  I came to believe wholeheartedly by the time I was preparing for the Scrutinies and when I was received into the Church on April 19, 2003.  Even more than this, I came to believe so truly and completely within two years of my being received because I discerned a vocation to the priesthood; to become in fact a Sacrament of the Sacraments.

I tell this story to young people because we doubt, we struggle, we sometimes come up short, we question God and desire Him to reveal Himself to us in more powerful ways than we experience every day.  God does reveal Himself but we have to be open and ready to receive Him.  He will answer what we ask of Him.  He did for me.  I was not as open as I needed to be, before that meeting, and after I almost became one of those people who departed when He revealed Himself as the Bread of Life.  When I opened my heart, mind and soul – the Lord revealed Himself to me.  Rarely does a young person have the dramatic experience they might hope for on the day of their Confirmation, like the Apostles did at Pentecost.  But this story might help some to see and realize how openness to the Holy Spirit is important and that something is ignited whether they feel it or not as they begin the next important step on their faith journey.

Commemorating the Day

My posting today is a reflection of a most personal nature; today is an important day for me altogether and one which I plan to celebrate.  It is the birthday of three good people in my life (for respect of their privacy I won’t mention them by name) but each of them has contributed in a big way to helping me love more as a person. They are without a doubt people I love, and perhaps one of the most fundamental parts of priestly formation for me was to learn how to love in life.  This is why I didn’t enter seminary until I was almost 35: for I needed to learn how to love and be loved!  This is something that has also become a fundamental quality I look for in the men whom I discern with and who I see a vocation to priesthood in.  If we don’t desire love; both to give and receive it, and have a sense of how to love others and be in relationship with God and with others – we aren’t ready for formation and to live a celibate vocation.  There are MANY people out there who think that priests and religious sisters and brothers are somehow deficient in their ability to love intimately another person and I would assert to the contrary; a celibate vocation requires a more radical sense of intimacy and love to be lived out daily.  To be able to love and forgo the beautiful gift of physical intimacy requires a deeper ability to have and desire intimacy to offer our celibacy in love for serving others as our Lord Jesus did.

The other reason I waited until I was 35, was that I was going on 32 when I was received a Catholic at the Easter Vigil in 2003.  That was April 19.  It was one of the most powerful and glorious events and I celebrated it on Saturday night, but the date itself was today.  I spoke about that event in my posting on Saturday but I commemorate the day today as well.  I have been a Catholic Christian fourteen years today.

The other event significant in my own life was the election of Pope (now Emeritus) Benedict XVI on this day in 2005.  As a neophyte, and someone moved in many ways to encounter Christ through St. John Paul II, I remember how the events of his final days of life were for me.  I remember about the wonder I had as a new Catholic watching the election of the new pope.  I remember taking the day as I was able to praying for our Church and for the new pope and the many new directions the Holy Father had for us as a Church.  I remember one thing that struck me when Pope Benedict emerged and spoke for the first time.  He talked about his own insecurities, trepidations and sense of unworthiness.  This had a deep impact on me as I was months away from seminary and preparing for my seminary interviews and giving up my career as a bus driver.  His fear at the office he was elected to serve, the highest and it seemed (to me perhaps) he was so qualified to hold; he could not find pride in this and was humbled by the election.  As so many of us do, I have struggled with pride in my life and the only way I have ever overcome pride (or the Lord has more appropriately) is through humility.  I have been humbled so often in life, and while it hurts when I am, it has been worth it!  Having been humbled, I seem to find it a little easier the older I get to have a more humble opinion of myself.  Not a low opinion, a humble one.  And please God, I will continue to.

Friends, take the days you have like mine today; we all have them and commemorate the anniversaries and events of your life.  Days like this are a reminder of what it means to be human and as men and women of faith they are important because they give us a sense of importance for the faith traditions and feast days we celebrate, reflecting more deeply on the Mystery of God.