Judas makes a “deal with the devil” today; actually with the Pharisees and the religious leaders who have firmed up their plan to get rid of Jesus. Judas is as committed to his plan as the Lord Jesus is to His. What is our plan and are we committed to what we are going to do with our lives?
One of the most challenging parts of a Vocation Director’s role is to work with men whom I see an authentic vocation in, who can’t see it for themselves and/or they feel (especially when it comes with a sensation on the part of the discerner) a great unworthiness because of past sins or a current struggle that they have with sin in their lives. As a confessor, I never undermine a good confession by telling a penitent that they needn’t wrestle with their sins and always confess them, but I do tell penitents and discerners that if they become focussed on their sins and/or their struggles they will miss out on what the Lord has for them to do; really, the joy of their life in living their faith. Often times, men and women make a “deal” which requires them to be perfect or near-perfect before they will give their lives to a religious vocation; if we wait for that we’ll not likely ever get there. Back to Judas for a moment, Judas had choices right up until the very end of his life to turn away from sin, even betraying the Lord and giving himself back to God. He didn’t, or at least we believe he didn’t (we don’t know what was in his heart in the final moments of his life and entrust that the mercy of God).
If our plan to date hasn’t been a plan to live for God and others; today is a brand new day and we need to see it as such. It’s not too late. If we’ve lived a life so far from God it might take time to get closer and closer to Him, but we need to begin or turn back. We might have made poor choices and what might seem like life-altering decisions already, but the Lord has a plan for each one of us, and we are not doomed until we doom ourselves by not living for Him at all.